Thursday, 15 March 2012

Conversations with my 13 year old self...

    If you like P!NK, you'll probably love the title to this post :P I used to listen to this song all the time when I was going through a rough patch when I was 13/14.
    Ok, so I can't speak for other people but personally, being a teenager has been rough for me. And when I say rough, I mean, rough. To be honest, things have brightened up now.. It's still hard yeah, but easier than it was before for sure. I am only 15 so I've still got sooo much growing up to do! Actually, growing up seems so exciting now, where as before I didn't want to grow up at all, the thought scared me..
    There are so many life lessons I have learnt already though and I enjoy learning new ones every single day!! but from what I've been through there's one that sticks out today...
    Everyone meets new people in their life, some stick around, and some don't. The ones that don't stick around end up making us feel really shit, right?  Make us think things like, what did I do? Why don't they like me? Why don't they seem to want to talk anymore? Is there something wrong with me? Are they avoiding me?.. There was times I used to sit there and think all of these things for hours on end, mentally draining myself as to why some people had just walked into my life and made me so happy, then just walked straight back out again like it was some walk-in clinic. Girls, but boys especially. I never intended having boys walk in and out of my life, but truth is, that's what happened. 'Hindsight is a wonderful thing' and looking back I wish I hadn't have fought so hard to keep up a relationship with people who just weren't bothered.
    If anything I've just learnt that if someone chooses to walk out of your life, let them. There's no use in wasting time on people who are just going to leave you, and what you make of yourself and your future is no longer tied to them.. Yeah, you might miss them, but always remember that you weren't the one that gave up!!! I'm not the type of person who gives up on people, if I'm going to meet someone new, and get involved with them I don't just tag along for awhile and leave when I get bored. To me that's just not how friendships and relationships are supposed to work..


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